Sunday, December 6, 2009

new years

yes, i know i said i stopped blogging. this will be my last one. i have been blessed with the most amazing year of my life, and in honor new years i would like to take the time to thank and remember every moment. and by every moment, i mean every moment. so sit back. relax. and read.

january 1st; new years, it wasnt the most thrilling day, but it brought in an amazing year.
january 3rd; a day that started a new me.
january 24th; the most amazing day of my entire life. never in a million years did i think hedley would have us partying in their vip lounge in montreal at a bar. just everything that entire night was perfect. free drinks, dancing, french band boys, sour candy, cheers, photographers, inside jokes, goodnight kisses. just an amazing amazing day. partying till 4am. id do it again.
january 25th; coming home, reminisce on memories.
february 3rd; that phone call.
march 3rd; seeing david archuleta in some random town in new york. him touching my hand. getting his set list and water bottle. i was in love.
march 5th; we the kings concert. one word ; devin. i love band boys. "shes my girlfriend"
march 13th; seeing the latency for the first time. little did i know what would come of this.
march 29th; maid of the mist audition. didnt get it. but that never stops me.
april 9th; i did a presentation on tender wishes in a charity speaking contest to raise 5000$ for the charity. never have i felt i did such a good thing for somebody else. we didnt win, but we let hundreds of people know about this charity. and our video was killer. everyone cried.
april 16th; oh dear. that mall trip. like so random. band boys. you kill me. ha.
april 22nd; all american rejects. insane. for real. i realized im a lot stronger then i actually am. and i need to keep my mouth shut, because i almost got in a fist fight. not gonna lie, i was scared. this woman had to pull us apart. im small, but dont under estimate me. never hit my friend first, i will attack. but regardless. i got tysons guitar pick, and i loved life that night.
may 5th; fall out boy. cobra starship. all time low. hey monday. metro station. best line up ever?
may 8th; DANE EFFING COOK. i never laughed so hard in my entire life.
may 19th; wonderland. i did the sky fly. i was so stoked on life.
may 22nd; a night filled with douchebag band boys. whatever. i have them whipped now. ;)
may 24th; i saw annie the musical. my childhood memories came to life.
may 29th; hey french band boys, i love ya ;) - new cities.
june 3rd; white tie affair, the veronicas, ting tings, 3oh!3, kevin rudolf. i LOVED my life. the veronicas are my entire life. i was dying.
june 12th; i was a hobo today. i slept on the streets of toronto for 16 hours. for mmva wristbands. a night ill never forget.
june 13th; coming home from wristbands after 16 hours on the street.
june 14th; i participated in a walk for diabetes. i was proud of myself.
june 20th; sleeping overnight for the mmvas. once again. this time its the actual show.
june 21st;MMVAS 2009. best.night.ever. onstage. backstage. but never upstaged. i will never ever ever ever forget this years mmvas. ever.
june 22nd; my brother graduated grade 8. hes all grown up.
june 26th; headed down to pennsylvania. another amazing road trip.
june 27th; I.MET.DAVID.ARCHULETA. OH.MY.GOD.
june 28th; coming home from pennsylvania. i was in shock. (still am to this day)
june 29th; the latency. a start of something i will never forget.
june 30th; the latency. 13 bags of dick anyone? another perfect night.
july 3rd; the latency. fair. words cant describe this night. just. everything fell into place.
july 5th; my cousin came home from scotland. i was stoked. :)
july 10th; WARPED TOUR. enough said. band boys kill me. i love music.
july 12th; drove 6 hours to be there for when a bench was put in place at our camping site in honor of my gedo. i miss you.
july 15th; i met my idols. the veronicas.
july 18th; my dad got married. something that ill never forget.
july 19th - 27th; disney world. the trip that changed me. never would i think id get on stage and sing in front of thousands of people. sign autographs. and just let alone make top 3. ive never been so happy in my life.
august 1st; a happy happy happy happy day.
august 2nd; i saw taylor swift in concert. i cried. i laughed. i screamed. i was in love.
august 8th; BIRTHDAY. niagara falls with the girls.
august 14th; american idol. never did i think i would be singing with matt giraud infront of everyone. nope. never.
august 15th; probably the best concert ive been to. hi new friends. officially. watergun fights. watching screamo bands. walks around the park. backstage. chilling behind merch booths. sing alongs. stealing of relationships ;) . just all around an amazing night. good bands. good band boys. good friends. good night.
august 21st; rocking toronto with the rockstar.
august 22nd; "a beautiful girl walking next to me" sums up my night. oh wait. "well...im doing nothing...and your doing nothing...did you wanna go for coffee" that sums up my night as well. i legit fell in love tonight.
august 25th; emily ooooooo. idiot. dance parties on mod.
august 27th; latency. oh dear. just oh dear. HA.
august 30th; amazing race, jonas style. just an incredible day. i met joe jonas. emily and i have the best sneaking skills ever.
september 4th; latency at mod. emily and i OWNED this entire mod. legit.
september 13th; stereos in cambridge. backstage. yeesssir. good day.
september 18th; i got to stand in the middle of a legit football field in the stadium. chill on the tsn camera crew truck. watch drunk people make fools of themselves. i love the cfl. only for that night though.
september 19th; the filming of our my date with video. we worked so hard.
september 24th; i found out i was top 4. in the middle of school. i screamed so loud. the whole school knew by the end of the day.
september 25th; much music came and shot for my date with. we lost. but the response and support emily and i had was unbelievable. thank you to everyone that was behind us.
october 4th; emily and i did a phone interview for the paper. and i saw the new cities and trench. josh= biggest douche. and new cities. well lets just say, yes david you did make me dance tonight;)
october 5th; jakeyyy at mod. oh wow.
october 6th; best new cities show ever. yes. yes. yes. i cant really go into details. but yeah. it was a very good night.
october 10th; thanksgiving with the fam jam. a much needed vacay.
october 19th; i woke up to a new follower on twitter and a private message from a band boy i was kind of a dick to. oops? its okay joshhyyy. i still love you. this continued for a while. see you next time you are in town;)
october 24th; stereos. really good. zombie walk.thriller dance. even better.
october 31st; i love halloween.
november 2nd; you asked for my number. holy moly. making my way to the bands in the states.HA
november 6th; i had my much music audition. and my date with aired:( it was cool though, not gonna lie.
november 10th; canT keEp A SecrEt.
november 12th; visited my future school. fingers crossed. gah.
november 13th; i went to mod with the best friend. and i fell in love with bronson and kellan. then we booked it to stereos. which was a goooood time.
november 15th; gabey baby made me go bad. devin is my boyfriend. and martin is a sex god. i.love.band.boys. that is all.
november 16th; private boys like girls show. martin got me love drunk. "i know who martins going home with tonight;)". if it wasnt for the bus driver, ohhh man HAHA. but seriously. i love you martin.
november 17th; the show must go.
november 19th; so i saw my boys. met them without paying 200$ obviously. actually met them for free. i cant even explain. but just. gah. good night.
november 20th; last minute adventure. wheres fluffy? oh wait. wheres hedley? we won. like legit. won. first ones there. the prize = fantastic. chilled all night. so many inside jokes. so intimate. just perfect. i loved all the talks about the montreal after party. omg. hahaha.
november 24th; stereos video shoot. this was great. im pats redbull. and pat and i sang alot. together. yay.
december 3rd; shoot for muchnews; top celebrity shockers. it was an incredible expierence. and so many good things happened. this isnt the last you'll see of us . just saying ;). gah.
december 5th; took a trip to aurora with the rockstars, and saw the boys. again.
december 7th; thank you tommy.
december 15th; and hes back, and so are the feelings. not good.
december 16th; i learned a lot of french tonight. and im "hardcore". with the band. of course.
december 17th; after parties win at life. "were lining up a shot for every friend we've got" - describes the entire night. basically. i will never ever forget this night. my god.
december 19th; i got the digits. awwww yeah. texting all night. hotel rooms. lobby calls. i love band boys so much.
december 24th; christmas with my dad. I GOT MY BAM MARGERA SKATEBOARD. ilovemylife. the show emily and i were on with much music was aired today. pure awesomeness.
december 25th; christmas. a perfect day. complete with texts that i didnt except to recieve. NEW YEARS LETS COME FASTER.
december 26th; more family time. i love family time.
december 27th; a day i needed so much. fml. dont leave. please. im falling so hard.
december 31st; UNREAL. legit. UNREAL. the best new years of my entire life. 3 hotel parties. my favourite bands. partying till 8 in the morning. UNREAL. i cant believe it.


oh 2009, what a year you have a been. making stronger friendships with my best friend. becomming closer with my family, and becoming with friends with people i never thought i could say i was friends with them. looking back on this year i realize i am one of the luckiest girls alive. maybe you dont think so, but for me personally i believe i am truly blessed with a fantastic life, and this year proved it for me. yeah, there was some tough times but with the great family and friends i have, ive realized i can do just about anything. ive done things with people i never thought we happen. some i cant talk about on here in detail. but i mean, really. did i ever think id get to do this. no. years ago when i was 12/13 years old and i was meeting my favourite bands for the first times ; faber drive and hedley. i was so little, and just hoped maybe one day they'll recognize me at a show. now i look at what ive done this year. and its so mind boggling. not only do they recognize me. its something i couldnt explain. everything is just so legit now. i come back home from a concert with more then a "omgz he hugged me" its just pure awesomenss and i know ill never forget this year for concert reasons. its band boys after band boys after band boys. so many bands, so many boys, so many concerts, so many memories, so many things many people wouldn't believe. it started off partying with my favourite band, and ended partying with my other favourite band. honestly, this year was more then i could ever ask for. i'm serious when i say this has been the best year of my life, and i know the rest of my life is just getting started. bring it on 2010. im ready for you .

Monday, November 2, 2009

its time to say goodbye.

im done with blogging. for real.
sometimes i think i say too much.
about my life, expierences, and problems.
not that its a bad thing, i mean it helps get stuff out.
but i think its time now, that i keep things a mystery.
i dont know why, but things are more exciting for me that way.
obviously before, i didn't say absolutely everything about my life, where ive been, what ive done, concert stuff. for like obvious reasons.
but now im just going to keep everyone guessing.
its fun that way.
and blogging for me, will continue.
only in my journal.
where they know e v e r y t h i n g .
so goodbye:)

Sunday, November 1, 2009

this is my life.

this is wrong but i cant help but feel like there aint nothing more right.
misty morning comes again and i cant help but wish i could see your face

and i knew from the first note played
i'd be breaking all my rules to see you
you smile that beautiful smile
and all the girls in the front row scream your name

so dim that spotlight
tell me things like i cant take my eyes off of you
im no one special
just another wide eyed girl
whose desperately in love with you
give me a photograph to hang on my wall.
superstar

morning loneliness comes around when im not dreaming about you
when my world wakes up today you'll be in another town

and i knew when i saw your face
id be counting down the ways to see you
and you smile that beautiful smile
and all the girls in the front row scream your name

so dim that spotlight
tell me things like i cant take my eyes off of you
im no on special
just another wide eyed girl
whose desperately in love with you
give me a photograph to hang on my wall
superstar

you played in bars, you play guitar
and im invisible and everyone knows who you are
and you'll never see you sing me to sleep
every night from the radio

so dim that spotlight
tell me things like i cant take my eyes off of you
im no one special
just another wide eyed girl
whose desperately in love with you
give me a photograph to hang on my wall
superstar.

sweet, sweet, superstar

Saturday, October 31, 2009

honestly

if i could ask you for one thing, it would be this.
please. for the love of god. please.
just one would be nice.
make it this one.

Monday, October 26, 2009

david archuleta

I made the decision to start running again in the mornings, and the hardest part was to get it started. It was hard to motivate myself out of bed in the mornings. … Sometimes I just had to fight with myself to just get up and get ready, but I told myself, DAVID, you said that you’re going to exercise, and you’d better get out of bed or else you will have LIED to yourself, and you know what lying to yourself leads to; it leads to saying that you’ll do things, and… it’ll lead to saying that you’ll do things for other people and then failing and falling through with what you were supposed - what you said you were gonna do. And I don’t like that, so, lying to other people… no. And I was like, David, your reputation is on the line here. You know, if you start now… little things grow into bigger things, and I don’t want that happening.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

they love us

"but you can tell emily though, cause i know you guys are lovers and everything"

i love getting secret information. all i can say, is that im going to die in december. "arent you going to get sick of me;)?" "never!". 3 times, in 4 days.

best, news, ever.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009