I tried to hold on to

I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

i dont understand how someone just gets up and leaves.
how do you say goodbye.
i was afriad to say goodbye.
i wont let you in, let you see me cry.
i wont take this anymore.

pain is invetible, suffering is optional.