i miss you

you would hold me close in your arms. i loved the way you felt so strong. i never wanted you to leave. i wanted you to stay here holding me. i miss you. i miss your smile. and i still shed a tear everyone once in a while. and even though its different now, your still here somehow. my heart wont let you go. but i need you to know. i miss you. oh how i wish you could see. every thing thats happening for me. im thinking back on the past. its true the time is flying far to fast. i miss you. i miss your smile. and i still shed a tear everyone once in a while. and even though its different now, your still here somehow. my heart wont let you go. but i need you to know. i miss you. i know your in a better place. but i wish that i could see your face. i know your where you need to be. even though your not here with me. i miss you. i miss your smile. and i still shed a tear everyone once in a while. and even though its different now, your still here somehow. my heart wont let you go. but i need you to know. i miss you.



Roger Raymond Kulchycki , May 7th, 1943 - July 16th, 2008.
he left way to soon.
he was my gedo (grandpa) and my hero.
he was the definition of strength .
rest in peace gedo. i love you .

its more then just a word.

its a life changing moment. it turns things upside down. it spreads so fast. making everything so much worse. there isn't even a cure. it kills me inside to see him have this word taking over him. he used to be so strong. the loudest guy in the room. he could always make me laugh. its hard for him now to even eat. i dont know how much longer i can last. i block it out as best i can. everytime i see him. i wait to wake up from this dream. im his little peach. he's supposed to dance with me at my wedding day, watch me grow up, be there for me like he always has been. i love him.

its one step at a time.

you cant leave.

its hard to believe a few months ago. everything was perfect. he was perfect. he was 100% healthy. happy. fine. how can someone that has been so amazing and strong get put through this.
june 9th; the day we got the news that turned my world upside down. i hate this more then anything. im his little peach.
he cant leave...