soundtrack to my summer.

this summer was honestly the best and worst summer of my life. i lost one of the most important people in my life to cancer. as much as i tried to forget about it, everywhere i went, everything i did reminded me of him. it seems like every concert i went to theres a song about losing someone, being sick, missing someone, and cancer. there was times when i'd want to tell him about things ive done. i wanted to hear him say im proud of you, or you go to too many concerts, or get off that computer. i wanted him to be with me when i turned sixteen. there was many times i wished he could be there, and i wanted to cry. but i have the most amazing best friend who was always there for me this whole summer. even though she lives kinda far away we managed to see eachother almost every day. all the concerts we got to go, with all those memories at the shows. i can guarantee we will never forget those times. mosh pits, pit bulls, birthday wishes, big screens, pouring rain at almost every show, hanging out with bands, video shoots, dinner with the johnstones, tour buses, stalking jesse mccartney outside his hotel, and so much more. ive done so much this summer, i cant even believe its over. i had the greatest summer and i lived it up as best i can even though im hurting so bad inside. theres so many times i wanted to break down and cry, and theres been times when i wanted to tell the whole world how happy and excited i was for so many different reasons. 

i hate that summers ending. but im stoked for the rest of the year.