two worlds collide

im so glad i found a best friend that will always be by my side. one that i know will be in my life forever. how we met is probably the creepiest story , on my part. it will always make me laugh.  we'll stick together no matter what. i love how she has the strongest opinions and voices her opinions any chance she can. shes so awesome and i love her. the two of us dont let anyone put us down. we'll stick by eachother no matter what. 

the fact that someone can say such things boggles my mind. i dont really understand what we did, i probably never will. we were honest, trying to fix the problem, but it didnt go through your head. things just went wrong from there. i guess thats just who you were. we cant change you, but we can let it go . best friends go first in my book. i put myself second for them.  i make mistakes, im not perfect. when im wrong ill admit it. but im not going to take blame for something i didnt do. ive probably said some things i shouldnt, im not sorry, they needed to be said. could of said it probably of said it nicer, but hey the past is in the past. 

i didnt want to have to write something, ive written stuff before then erased it because i didnt want to keep bringing it up. but now as you've said what have i got to lose. nothing.  i think i understand more then you know. when it comes to being the victim. ive been the victim in plenty of situations, as you should know because you were by my side. but now i feel differently because ive seen the facebook mini feed, and that girl put me through hell , fyi. so next time when your trying to patch up a friendship, think twice because right then i knew i dont want you back. sure you were there for me a lot.  i wont deny that. and ill thank you for the times you stuck by my side. but just remember on facebook nothings private ;) 

i never accused you of those things, if you read correctly it wasn't just towards one person, sure i deleted it. i didnt want people assuming things anymore. i dont regret anything i did, and i dont feel the need to apologize. ive let this go. and then all of a sudden i read nasty things about myself when ive clearly minded my own buisness. and done my own thing . never said one thing.  i dont have problems. i dont drop friends like flies they leave my life for a reason. you should know since you were there for all the times they put me down. i do make mistakes. im not perfect. but i am special. havnt you heard everyones special in their own unique way ;)  and i dont have to live in a fantasty, cause im living the dream. 

we had good times, i wont forget you, this shouldnt of happen, but your not gonna change. 

this is the last you'll hear from me about this.

peace out 

i remember the simple things

remember that time we tried to cook kraft dinner and made a mess everywhere. remember that time we sat and played cake mania for hours. remember that time we pretended we were sharks in the pool. remember that time we would take 2342 pictures of ourselves. remember that time we had a cake fight. remember that time you got stuck in a swing. remember that time you sunk in sinking sand. remember that time we made up songs for hours. remember that time we stayed up super late just so we could scare my mom and we failed. remember those nicknames. remember the comics we would make. remember the time you roller bladed to my house cause we got in a fight and you wanted to say you were sorry. remember the punch buggy wars we had. remember our made up games that we would play for hours. remember family time. remember how we used to share the smallest couch but somehow manage to both fit on it comfortably. remember how immature we could be and think we were the funniest people alive. remember how you used to live at my house, and i had a section in my closest just for you.remember how we used to be able to do nothing at all and manage to have an amazing time. people wouldnt understand the things we did. but we would find them the most amusing things ever. then things changed. i miss how things used to be. not the way they are now. the times when we were like sisters.  i dont even know what happened. im sure you couldn't tell me either. 

ive got a lot to say to you.

but i wont say it, cause you blow EVERYTHING out of proportion.

whatever im done with you. half the things you said should of never come out of your mouth.

im not the wrong one here. either is my best friend. she means the world to me. and thats really all that matters. 

ps. its not a fantasy baby, im living the dream . k thanks. 

ill be right here by your side.

this past little while i realized i actually like you.  

im glad i didnt lie. even though it makes things harder. i dont want to be caught in a lie.

"best friends dont tell secrets" 

"my friend thinks your cute....but i cant tell you who it is"

into the rush.

i hope this feeling never goes away. i havn't been this happy in such a long time. its the rush of adrenaline of being on stage with your favourite band. backstage. in the trailer. and getting to do it all with your best friend. its times like these that make me forget everything . i live for that.  i like to party like a rockstar baby. 

think twice

maybe you should think twice about your actions.

and ill think about the past.

this little girl has been pushed around too many times.

im stronger now then i ever was before.

ive realized

most people aren't who they say they are. im an example thats for sure.  i love to keep people guessing. i can guarantee that 99 % of you have no idea who i am.  keeping people wondering is half the fun. my life is one big guessing game. people assume so many things. ive heard so many stories. i dont lie. i just smile. once you get to know the real me. that means i trust you. and your really important to me. there's only a few people that are that close to me. and i will do anything to keep them here forever. 

so so what? i still rockstar. i got my rock moves. and i dont need you. and guess what im having more fun. and now that were done. im gonna show you tonight. im alright. im just fine. and your a tool. so so what? i am a rockstar. i got my rock moves. and i dont want you tonight.

saw you for the first time yesterday

and it was probably the hardest thing i ever had to do. i didnt look at you once. i kept my head to the ground. i was angry. i didn't cry. i couldn't. i didn't say anything either. i couldn't bring myself to it. it's weird. but im learning a song for you. and once i get up the courage to finally be able to visit you. ill play it for you. and i know you'll be smiling from up above. 

man.

i give up.

hahahahahahaha like really.

do you think before you act.

i really dont think you do.

what you did was just low. 

so this is goodbye.

i miss you already.

genius

"sometimes things slow down. sometimes they go so fast they feel like they're not moving. other days its easy to breathe while some you can't smell a thing. sometimes life wasn't meant to play like a game of boggle. rinse and repeat"

jwh.

summer fades to fall

even though summers over. that doesnt mean the party stops.

september 6 ; brazen in toronto 

september 7; toronto film festival - jim sturgess (L)

september 9; mandy k

september 12; faber drive possibly ?

september 20; faber drive

september 28; faber drive

october 18; hedley possibly?

october 20; hedley

october 26; metro station

october 27; hedley

november 25; cobra starship 

im so stoked.