nothings perfect.

no bodys perfect. nothing is perfect. life isnt perfect. things can never seem to go good for too long. i wont lie, things are pretty fantastic. im so happy with everything. ive been able to do things that not many people get to do. lately luck has been on mine and my best friends side. backstage. vip. on stage. car rides. dinner dates. more backstage. trailers.  its been pretty amazing.  plus the fact that im now with an agency. and my photoshoot is soon. so things are good. but nothing can ever just go good for too long without throwing me for a curve. totally unexpected. i dont want this to happen. everythings going to be different. basically all hope now is going to be gone forever. the term 'just friends' is going to apply now more then ever. even though deep down you know there not going to get back together , people are constantly telling you that there not going too, but there will always be that little tiny part of you that hopes they will. now everything changes. i have a few choices. i can be the biggest brat of all time, and get rid of her like i did all the others. at least this girls nice. but the term marriage is just so permanent. i can always just suck it up and accept everything. but i dont really want to go to the wedding. im supposed to be the most important girl in his life. daddys little girl. but now someone else is going to come into place. people tell me oh i understand how your feeling. dont worry everything will be okay. but you dont know. you probably never will. unless if you have been in my shoes.  i dont even know. the news hit me like a ton of bricks. i didnt see this comming at all. i can already hear the wedding bells. oh joy.