to appreciate the best, you have to experience the worst.

ive finally just realized that everything bad that has happened in my life was for a reason. i didnt believe that saying because i was so mad at the world because i didn't understand why everything was happened. and now im finally realizing that they happened for really good reasons. when my gedo passed away i was so mad at everything because he didnt deserve to go. he was too young. i still believe he shouldn't of been put through that, or my family. i really wish that didnt happen. but i think that has brought my family closer then it has ever been. things have been closer between us then they have in the past few years.  my parents are divorced but since the summer when he passed away, they've become really good friends. and thats more then i could ask for. my dads family + my moms family are able to do things together again. that means the world to me. and i dont think anyone can understand. whats even better is that my mom and my dads fiance are friends too. haha. its a little weird knowing he's getting married, and it kinda upset me at the beginning. but whats the point in getting so angry, and only focusing on the negative when i have so many things that are positive around here. i have the most amazing best friend i could ever ask for. i know she will be by my side forever. i finally found the best friend that knows the meaning of forever. ive lost so many friends in my life, and they have hurt me pretty bad. they were making me so much stronger and tought me the values of friendship. so i know that my best friend and i will stick by eachothers side forever. even though i only get to see her a few times a month because she lives far away, she will always be there for me, and ill be there for her.  my family is probably the greatest family in my eyes. we've been through so much. and that has only made us stronger. they've let me have so many great opportunities. the fact they support me in everything i do, makes me so happy.  they would do anything to have me follow my dreams.  one day it will happen. im signed with film comm and talent. a top talent agecny in the niagara area. that just gets me so excited, because things could finally take off. im prepared for the worst. i dont expect anything, because sometimes the greatest things come unexpected. i get to do things so many people havn't. all because my family lets me do them, they got me where i am today. they've helped along the way. if it wasnt for them i wouldn't be backstage, onstage, vip, front row, in hotel rooms, or any of that. they let me go to the concert to begin with. and im so happy. people dont understand why i get to go to so many concerts. but its my passion. i live for the music. i live for the rockstar life. getting up early, long days, staying up all night, on stage, backstage, vip access, front row, music videos, cd release parties and that doesn't even begin to explain what i've been able to do. and the best part is ive experienced every single one of those things with my best friend.  my best friend, my family, and my music takes up my entire life. they have my heart and i wouldnt change any of it for the world.