reach out to you, touch my hand

it still hasn't really hit me yet. that i saw my idol live in concert. i know i've seen a lot of people, met a lot of them too. but it was different this time. when i see hedley or faber drive its like im excited, but its not like this. ive seen them before, mulitple times. i can talk to them on a personal level. they've faded from idol status. dont get me wrong. there still me absolute favourite. but when its your idol, its different. ive never been like this with anyone. except maybe the first time i met hedley.  i'd throw it all away for him. i basically did throw all my money away for him. just to see him. i promised myself i would never pay more then $100 on a concert ticket cause i think thats insane. i broke that last night. for him.  $150 gone. i think it came to $400 total for 3 tickets. but it was worth it.  ive been waiting for so long to see him.  i might of never saw him. i didn't even have tickets. drove for about 2 hours to another country. (although new york isnt that big of a deal to me anymore) and ran around looking for a scalper. floor seats. 15 rows back. it was perfect. i cant even comprehend that i saw him. this is so lame. but like this is who i've been waiting for. since american idol. i saw him step on stage. i lost it. i dont know what i would of done if i met him. so in a way its a good thing i didn't meet him. and make a complete fool out of myself. usually i beat myself up if i dont meet someone, cause im sad. im used to it. but last night. i was just so happy that i was able to see him. i was ready to pay for nose bleed seats. so to get floors for your absolute favourite is a feeling you will never forget. i mean ive seen a lot of my favourite bands ; miley cyrus, jonas brothers, metro station, justin timberlake, pink, lil chris, and the list keeps on growing. but they dont compare.  

plus the fact that you smiled and laughed when i screamed i love you while you were fixing your piano. makes it a million times better. people dont understand why i do things for bands. but its reasons like this. moments that will make me smile for days even when it feels like everything is falling apart around you.