1) im done with people trying to make me feel like never good enough. you say im all these terrible things. with no proof to back it up. your stories are mixed up all over. you say one thing. she says another. ive sat here minding my own business, and get dumped on because all you do is lie. ive done nothing but be a good friend. im sorry that i dont take you everywhere i go. get your own ride. actually im not sorry. you knew from the start how i am. thats how ill always be. i know im not half the stuff you say i am. but you can be the judge of that. and if you dont want me in your life, clearly im not losing much anyways.
2) ITS NOT A COMPETITION. its so different. if thats all im gonna hear. i dont want to hear it. its not my job to sit there and listen. my perspective of you isn't gonna change. im not gonna get down on my hands and knees and think your some god. not even. remember before? just think. when it wasn't like this. just remember. different wasn't it? yeah. thats what i thought. i dont want to hear about it. i dont need to hear about it. and i don't even care. you better be glad things are okay. thats all i have to say.
3) it saddens me really. ive come to the conclusion that sometimes maybe people don't really have the stuff they say they do. they lack in ways, that they feel the need to live through other people. make it seem like others realities becomes theres. lead others to believe that this really happened. when it fact it didn't at all. maybe its something else. maybe they just cant think. maybe that its fate. maybe you found the person that is your so called twin in life. ha. no. thats not it. i really don't know why. its a scary thought. wondering where this exact sentence could go. on a document? in a book thats on a bedtime book shelf?
4) i really wish that.... i could talk about everything that is making me lose control. but whose really listening anyways. no one.
btw. i tried spelling cupboard today. i had spelt is cubbard. cuppard. cubord. and the list when on until i took it to google. try saying it outloud. i dare you.
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