back to the place where the night never ends

i cant get over it.

i'll never get over it.

i wont forget it.

i'll never regret it.

i dont believe it.

i know it happened.

i wanna go back.

i wanna go back forever.

its been a week. today.

i want it to be right now.

gahhhh.

montreal was perfect.

he was perfect.

the whole night was perfect.

everything worked out perfectly.

i dont really understand how these things happen. but they just do. i couldnt of asked for anything better then this weekend. we didn't except anything would happen. but it turns out EVERYTHING hapened. it was perfect.

im going to miss them so much.

watch and i will make it happen.

we always dream big.

always have these adventures planned out.

always want to go on huge roadtrips.

and guess what.

now ones finally coming true.

i cant believe we made this happened.

what started out as some hopeless dream we laughed about.

is happening.

and ill try to brave.

for you.

she had bigger plans.

i know he's not worth it. but i dont think ill ever believe it.

i know it will be the best thing. but im kinda scared.

i know i should be studying. but i cant concentrate.

i know he's gone. but i always hope that he will come back.

i know he's older. but i secretly dont care.

i know its just cause she cares. but sometimes i cant take it.

i know she means it. but im constantly doubting it.

i know its forever. but im afraid.

the other side.

you always complain, about being the one that gets hurt.

you say you're always the one with the heartache.

you talk about what they all have done wrong to you.

but do you hear yourself talk?

what you hated happening to you.

your doing to me.

and i dont think you realize. i dont think your sorry.

you put me through hell, and you know it.

which is why you cant talk to me like you use to.

in fact. you cant talk to me at all anymore...

i never thought it would be you

to tear my god damned heart into two.

if theres nothing i cant say.

to make you stay with me.

so dont forget to lose my number. nothing matters.

you played a game. the game was me. 

i didn't know you were playing.

you had the game all figured out.

you knew the things to say.

you knew the things to do.

so congratulations, you won.

i dont want to play anymore.

we take dedication to a new level

when you love a band too much, sometimes you do crazy things.

like take a 6 & 1/2 hour train ride to another province. 

for their very last show.

waste all your money on a trip that will be less then 24 hours.

some may say were stupid, have no life, why are you doing that.

my answer; cause these boys are worth it. 

its gonna be the best trip ive ever taken. with all my favourite people.

13 days and counting.

Get ready montreal; here we come.

im just a silly little girl

who falls for stupid boys.

now im not so sure.

this is the story of my life right now.

say your sorry

that face of an angel comes out

just when you need it to

as i pace back and forth all this time

cause i honestly believe in you

holding on

the days drag on.

stupid girl, i should of known.

that i'm not a princess

this aint a fairy tale

im not the one you'll sweep off her feet

lead her p the stairwell

this aint hollywood, this is a smalltown.

i was a dreamer before you went and let me down

now its too late for you and your white horse to come around.

im not a princess

this aint a fairy tale.

it really isn't. i shouldn't of done that. but its not my fault. i liked you. it wasn't my mistake. even though i should of known. i wont let you make me think its my fault. it got really bad. you made it better. maybe your white horse was coming around.  that took courage. i would never do that. the apology was sincere. you told you meant it from the bottom of your heart. i believe you.  this time. dont screw it up. i dont know what were are. i dont know where we stand. but did i ever. no. not really. its just one big mess of confusion. ive done things i probably shouldn't of done. but im not putting the blame on myself.

I'm not going to let you make me crazy. I'm not going to let this make me crazy. I am not crazy

remember what you're worth.

this is why i dont trust people. i tell you one thing, you do the opposite.

you used me up, and cut me down. 

its actually surprising, cause i thought you were different.

but your just like everyone else.

so much for my fresh start, a new beginning.

and to answer your first question, my answer is yes. 

i regret everything

its a new year

which means a new start.

which means new memories.

which means a new beginning.

which means forgetting drama.

which means making the best of the year.